The Big Horn (What the Fuck Actually Happened)Well, I have been replaying this in my head over and over and I don’t where to really start but at the beginning. I was at the start, went…Jun 21, 2021Jun 21, 2021
BreakthroughsRunning this week has been a revelation. Not so much in the sense that I have had this realization that I am fast or that I am a badass…Feb 18, 20211Feb 18, 20211
GoalsToday I sent in the email that I was not running the Power of Four 50k. I would like to say that the decision felt right, that I knew with…Jul 24, 2020Jul 24, 2020
Being GratefulI am haunted by the idea that I will one day die from the most potent way I know, which is dying from the limits of my own freedom, taking…Sep 3, 2018Sep 3, 2018
Muscling it upAccording to the big book the fourth step is a fact finding mission but when I went about it all it felt like was a self shitting on…Dec 28, 2017Dec 28, 2017
There’s a profound recognition that something beyond yourself is well within reach once you…Everything I want to ski is beyond me and is dictated by the avalanche conditions I see. This is the universe telling me that I am not in…Nov 25, 2017Nov 25, 2017
Step ThreeI already went through the steps and I have to do them again because I relapsed and since I relapsed I am going through all of the hell…Nov 17, 2017Nov 17, 2017
DrinkI really want to drink, like really want to drink. I really want to feel the alcohol rush down my throat and I really want to feel the…Sep 25, 2017Sep 25, 2017
The PauseOne of the big ideas in Alcoholics Anonymous is the idea of the pause or more specifically that we take a moment from our default wiring…Aug 19, 2017Aug 19, 2017
Getting on my kneesBulletproof coffee is great but it’s really fucking bad for you, like really fucking bad, that is unless you eat a ketogenic diet, which…May 21, 2017May 21, 2017